I cannot listen to music without associating it with certain situations or people or places. It is a good thing and a bad. Sometimes, it gets terribly difficult to listen to a particular song if it evokes certain memories (which are now unpleasant).

One of those songs is Here Without You by 3 Doors Down. It used to be my happy song, which I cannot listen to now without a choking feeling. I feel claustrophobic, as if someone’s trying to smother me with a set of four pillows, and get pukish sensations.

The feeling is akin to wanting to run away from the world, without looking back even once.

Sadness, what a waste of happy music do the changed circumstances make!